emotions

Tonight I was watching America's Got Talent and they had this amazing brother-sister singing trio and they just had the emotional story that made me really feel for them. The little girl (who has the most amazing voice I have ever heard!!) was nine years old, the same age I was when my mom had her accident, so I really understood when they were talking about their mom who was hit by a drunk driver and spent 8 months in a coma. I just totally felt their pain and it made me sad that other families have been through what I have been through and worse. It's just so not fair (and yes, I know life isn't fair) that nice people who have nothing to deserve this pain are subjected to it. It's not fair that families have mothers taken away from them by careless people and random accidents. Because I know from experience, even though my mom is still here, she has never been the same and I have not been able to have a mother daughter relationship with her since then because of the accident. It took away a part of my mom and I could tell that it was the same for these kids. And what's worse is that their mom was almost killed by a drunk driver. It absolutely disgusts me that someone who is not in control would get in a car and not only risk their own life, risk hurting the people that care about them, and risk some innocent persons life just for their own recklessness and a good time. What disgusts me even more is how long I put up with people that are those reckless people in my own life. At least now I know better and know that they won't be able to hurt me in that way. If I knew the person that I am talking about read this (doubtful, but who knows) I would tell them that they should have enough respect for themself, and know that there are so many people that care about you and if you continue along this path you will hurt them (myself included because no matter how hard I try I still do care). I'm just putting it out there, reckless behavior hurts, divides and destroys families. It's not fair and I don't wish what I have gone through or what these kids have gone through on my worst enemies.

Paris, France

One day I WILL go to Paris. That is my dream vacation. I don't know how long it will take me to save to go there but one day, I will go. Once I get a real job, I will officially start saving, the goal would be to go before I'm 30. That seems like a long way away but I've been dreaming of going there since I was like 10, so hopefully I can make it. There are just so many great places to go see, and all the culture and history that is there to experience. It would be such a dream come true. I think the only reason I subjected myself to 5 years of French classes was because I loved the country (of course the language is romantic, but anyone who knows me knows that I am far from fluent in French). The Eiffel Tower, the Arc de Triomph, the Louvre, the Champs Elysees, Moulin Rouge, Notre Dame... ah, I just want to go expereince all of it. And then go to the south of France and visit the country side, drink wine and see all the chateaux.

...one day.

my love- arts&crafts

My project for the last week has been refinishing and painting this old nightstand that I had painted more than ten years ago (never let 10 year olds design or use acrylic paints to do their own furniture!!!). It now fits in with the style and colors that I have in my room now and will decorate my new room with in my new apartment. I had so much fun doing it that I'm now searching for more projects to do. I just have to find things that don't cost too much money! maybe my next project will be designing some kind of artwork/pictures/cool-thing to go in my living room. I must admit... I am a crafty person, haha.

Excitement!!!

I finally signed a lease for an apartment today! And the search started off pretty bad too. I went to the place that I've had my eye on since I started looking but it turned out that they didn't have any apartments in my price range that fit my move in date. So I was totally bummed and figured what the heck it couldn't get any worse so I might as well check out this place that owns a bunch of properties. We went to the first apt which was nice but cost too much. The next place was really small, kinda run down, and smelled funny. So on the way to the third place I was just kind of losing faith in the search. It turns out this place is right across the street from my apt now and doesn't look like anything special from the outside. But we go inside and it has just been remodeled and it is soooooooo cute! There are stained concrete floors throughout the place; in the living space there is like this polka dot pattern and in the bedroom it's more subtle. The kitched has the coolest tile backsplash and for a one bedroom, it is a really good size. And there is an orange accent wall in the living space and a blue one in the bedroom that matches my bedroom stuff perfectly!!! I'm just so psyched right now, words can't even explain it!!

So a total bummer of a day that started off early and kind of sucky, ended wonderfully with a new, awesome apartment!! and oh wait, the day isn't even over yet!! hopefully more excitement will come!