Sunday, August 30, 2009

what can you do?

What can you do when you want something that you know is wrong for you but you go on wanting it anyway? It's like you know all the flaws up front, you know that this probably isn't right for you, you know that you don't act like yourself when you're around this thing you want. Why do you continuing wanting it? Why do you want those things that aren't good for you? You've been there before, been hurt before because you tried to make it work with something that was bad for you... and here you are again. A different kind of bad for you but none the less, it's not good. So, what do I do????

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

confusion

I trusted him. I let it go because he told me that he wouldn't hurt me and I believed him. How stupid am I? Being ignored and avoided hurts just as much if not more than if you would just tell me that you dont want to see me again. because now I'm just sitting here confused as to whether or not you like me. Most of the time the answer seems like no, but then you give me a glimmer of hope indicating maybe you do... oh well, sadly I like you enough that I will continue to wait for you to figure out what it is that you want from me. and if, well lets be realistic, when you decide that you don't actually like me, it will hurt even more. thanks for telling me you wouldn't hurt me.