ugh

I should be studying for sociology but my mind is elsewhere. It has been really hard for me to concentrate on anything since I've come to this series of realizations about my relationship. It will be really good to have spring break next week so that I can just deal with everything that I need to. It just sucks that basically none of my friends will be there for me to talk to. Everyone is either not on break or in other states or countries for that matter. But I know that this is something I have to deal with on my own anyway.

It's so ironic that things can be going so well in some aspects of my life and so utterly devastatingly confusing in other aspects. Why is it that the one bad thing seems to bring down everything else? I mean I'm about to graduate from college, I have all these amazing opportunities in front of me and I'm worried about a boy. A boy who is not even worried about me, even though we have been together for three years. It's just so devastating to actually hear him say that he does not care where I go or what I do next year, like he doesn't even want to be a part of my life...

So maybe I should move somewhere completely new. Maybe if I do get stationed in Texas for TFA I will do my contract and then apply to law school in a different state and go there and start a new life. Maybe I need a chance to start over and move on. Definitely move on...