Today happens to be Valentines Day so no surprise I'm thinking about love and what impact it has on my life. Today I feel truly loved by all my wonderful friends and of course my family who always makes it known that they love me unconditionally. I feel loved by life and the small blessings and favors it shows me every day: little things like a possibility for an internship, the beautiful snow a couple days ago, conversations with good friends that let you know everything will be all right.
But occasionally things catch me off guard... seeing someone unexpected that has hurt me in the past, far enough in the past that I feel I should be over it yet some how seeing them still makes my heart beat faster... realizing that someone who was in my life and such a significant part of my life just a year ago I don't even talk to anymore, and the feeling of loss, not necessarily lost love but just loss of one of the best friends I've ever had... not knowing when or how love like that will enter my life again... it's difficult, and it makes my heart hurt a little. But then I realize that for now I have all the love and support that I need (although more is always welcome, lol) thanks to the friends and family that help me keep it together on a daily basis.
On a different note, it feels weird being 22. 21 seemed like the age i would never get to much less ever get older than and now I'm 22 about to start my life outside of the protected world we call college. I'm scared and excited at the same time because I know that there are many challenges ahead of me but it's a new adventure and while usually that scares me, I believe I have become more adventurous lately and am ready for it.
That's enough for today, time to do some hw and not fail some tests.
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