anxious

I am feeling rather anxious about next monday, because that is when I finally find out whether I get a spot in the Teach for America Corps. I really hope I do but if that is not what happens then that is what is meant to be and I will move on. I just really hope it happens because I am excited about the prospect of being able to go somewhere new and exciting, start a new and make a difference in the lives of many children.

It has been kind of difficult the last few weeks but I feel like I am moving toward a better place and can see the decisions that I made in perspective. I feel better being able to see that I did the right thing and it will feel even better when I have totally moved on. But for now I am definitely getting there, slowly but surely.

Other than that, graduation is coming up fast, in only 31 days!!! basically a month from tomorrow!! It is exciting but scary all at the same time. I want to graduate but it means leaving the safe haven of my school world where I can just hide behind my books and keep learning indefinitely. But it is time that I get out into the "real world" and "make something of my life" like all parents tell us we have to do eventually. oh life, it is tricky and throws us some nasty curves but eventually we will get where we want to be. I just have to continue to persevere.