I want to be all excited about this summer, my first one not going home to my family, my first summer in 3 years being single, my first summer as a college graduate. But instead of being excited it's kind of sad and I'm nervous about all of this.
Nothing worked out the way it was supposed to this semester. Instead of going to law school or doing TFA, I am staying at UNT and getting another degree. So it kind of feels like I'm not really moving on and accomplishing a whole lot. I know that in the long run it will all be worth it. And I mean, I finished my first degree in only 3 years and this next one will only take another year so I'm still finishing both in 4 years. I'm just trying to accept that everything happens for a reason and this will all work out better for me in the end.
As far as being in Denton, most of my firsnde went home and it's been kind of lonely here these last 2 weeks. It will be really great when one of my room mates moves back in this weekend! I think things will get more exciting soon though with more people around. But right now I'm working a lot and it's really exhausting, hopefully that will slow down some soon too.
I'm starting to come to terms with being single though and realizing that I really did do the right thing. I know it has taken some time, maybe it seems like too much time to some people, but we had dated for 3 years and we only broke up a couple months ago. Personally, I think that I am handling it pretty well. I really want to get back out there though and start meeting new people and just try and be open to new things.
I'm just hoping that this summer will be the start of a new phase in my life. New, different, exciting and challenging. And hopefully I will be able to be open to whatever life throws at me and take things as they come.
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